Last blog before landing in Japan

This will be my last blog in singapore for this year. Tomorrow is the flight! 10.40pm at Changi Airport Terminal 1. It's a blinking of an eye like what i mentioned in another blog post couple of months back. I've already understood how time flies and i've been trying my best to make full use of all the time i have. Not that i've really done well in making full use of my time. Lots of time wasted worrying about many things and being depressed and emo. But it's still part of my life. Learnt lots of things till now. And a new journey awaits me.

Time to stay stronger and help more people around me, be it my important friends or strangers. Change takes time and every single step into the future results in a different future. Onwards wisely~

Faith Love Hope

Countdown: 3 days~

As of this post, 3 days to japan! Had recruitment talk at NUS earlier on. Will have another in NTU on tuesday.

Applying for international driving permit in singapore. Will need it when i wanna convert my sg license to japan license to drive in japan.

Very excited about getting a new guitar in japan! The next guitar i'm looking at is a fender telecaster! Either a red or beige telecaster! Hope i can find one i like. Who knows maybe i jus decide that telecaster is not for me in the end.

Countdown: 5 days to flight~!

5 days left! Going to NUS and NTU tomorrow and tuesday respectively! Wasted one sunday today staying at home packing stuff and sleeping! Can't say it's a waste though haha. I won't get a chance to sleep like this for a loooooong time. And i needed to prepare my 50kg box to be sent to japan too. And pack another 50kg worth of check-in luggage. Though i won't really use 50kg each at all.

My sisters bought me a new bag from Pedro after i asked for it. So nice. Might be a little metrosexual though but i guess it's not too bad depending on how you look at it. $119.

Ukulele and pulau ubin and japanese lessons

Ukulele given by my group of friends! So nice of them to give me just becos i said i want it for my farewell gift. I owe them big ones now. They brought it all the way to Pulau Ubin for the weekend chalet. Come to think about it, i didn't have time to post anything regarding the chalet. Let this photo be a memory of the weekend trip there. We had lots of fun under the sun and in the dim lights of the chalet.

Ukulele to entertain, after i improve my singing

Countdown to flight day: 9 days
Emotions: Nothing much left. Just excitement and maybe a little loneliness.

These couple of months since i started my japanese lessons, i've learnt lots of things from my fellow colleagues, Alan, Meilian and Sebin (hope none of them slaughters me for mentioning their names). Each of them have different characters and good points which i try to learn from. From Alan i've learnt leadership and mixing around with people. From Meilian i've learnt the importance of treasuring people around and living life happily. From Sebin i've gained lots of information about investing and knowledge around the world.

These few months have really been fruitful. I have never really understood the meaning of treasuring people around till now. I've always been the kind to jus mix around and meetup once in a while. But to put the effort to maintain the nice relationship, i've never really done it.

13 more days to flight day

Countdown~ 13 more days to flight as of time of blog post. Internal struggle isn't too great anymore. Things are seemingly more in control now. I do wish that if someone who is reading this blog and going overseas for a relatively long period of time can gain understanding on the ups and downs of waiting for the flight day.

Things aren't simple for the feeling of missing people close to me do get strong, at least for me. I'm sure many others feel the same way too. I really wish that i can be strong enough and not appear moody in front of people. Can't do it successfully yet. Control of emotions get hard when things aren't going your way. But i'm sure things can be improved with effort.

Couple more days to do my best and smile and be happy with everyone. I'm really glad i've really nice family and friends around me. I never really realise how close i can get with the friends till the time when i'm leaving. I guess the closeness doesn't appear till such times. And i also somehow wanna spend more time to everyone too. This is a really good experience. I'm glad i'm going Japan to work. Even my fellow friends in Toshiba are so cool that i've learnt so much things from them. How much more can i ask for in life...hmm just some more money to have a more comfortable life and a soulmate for the rest of my life??

Wanna make the last few days in Singapore the best since i'll be gone for a long time!

Fortune telling that's going to change me

Just went for one last session of fortune telling at Lot One yi wen fang today. It's supposedly done by a famous fortune teller that has 20plus years of experience and helped famous people.

I think i'm interested in fortune telling for letting me know what my future holds and as far as possible, tell me what i should do to improve my fortune. That's the idea i had when i went for fortune telling at IMM yuan zhong xiu 2 years ago. That's the idea i was having when i went for another round of fortune telling today.

All i had was 30minutes of negative things about my life. The fortune teller never mention anything good about my life. As if my life is only about bad things. I guess it's fine, since she might just be more focused and talk about bad things. But after all the talk, it didn't seem to hit me much. I dunno if it's her way of explanation or anything. It's true that the character wise she mentioned several things that are accurate. But she also mentioned things that i dun feel so much anymore. The way she put it seemed like my life is and will be worse. And recommended me to buy an item right after 30min. Great. She never tells me anything that i should change about myself and immediately tells me to buy their stuff. At least the IMM fortune teller told me what to be more proactive and stuff like that.

What am i supposed to do about it??? Wait and accept my fate and die??? I'm not that kind of person. I'm not someone who will accept things for what it is. If no advice is given, i'll look for one myself. And this fortune telling is going to change how i look at things again. I'm for myself from now on, and i'm not going to ask for help from such things again for a looooooong looooong time. Please dun try to buy things just in hope that it'll change your life. Life is still in your hands to change it. I'll need help from more friends and my family to point out my mistakes. I owe my life today to everyone who has been around me. I won't be who i am today without them. That, is so much better than buying astrological stuff from people who don't even bother to provide any advice and expect you to buy things from them after paying for the fortune telling.

Fly Me To The Moon

Learning this song now. Doing the Paul Gilbert's version. Mellow jazz with a tinge of distortion in his tone. But i'm doing a pure clean song of the song. Rather hard to get the feeling of the song. Technique wise is hard too. Will take some time to jus master the guitar part. Will take even longer time to master the guitar part while singing the song.

Cleaned my room (finally, since chinese new year) and rearranged my guitar gear. Gonna clear up my room to make it easier to pack since it's jus less than 3 weeks before my flight to Tokyo.

New picture of my guitars on display with the amp and effects~

First family dinner after many years

Yes! Finally another dinner with the family outside after like 10 plus years. Ate a nice fish with cereal prawns and some meat and veggies at Teck Whye kopitiam. Simple but meaningful. Won't be able to eat with them for quite some time already once i leave for japan.

Not much negativity about flying off already. Emo turning into excitement now. Only left with the vague future of what i need to do to make my life better. Hold on for another round of fortune telling next thurs at Lot One done by a famous fortune teller with 20 plus years of experience. Saw from newspaper article that she did it for famous people like Fann Wong and Christopher Lee.

emo emo emo emo emo emo!!!

21 more days to the flight to japan!!! Mixed feelings of everything!!! Leaving family and friends!!! Leaving sg food!!! Leaving sg places!!! Arggghhhhhh i need some emotional support. Trying not to think about it much everyday but it jus feels like i'm holding in a sneeze. You understand the feeling.

Luckily i've got friends who will hang out with me to make me feel less terrible. Now i really understand what is relationship. Gonna have such friends to make a person stronger and able to take up more challenges.

Having a girlfriend and a wife in future will be good too if she's able to listen and give the emotional support. Having a girlfriend or wife just purely for companionship isn't exactly sufficient. Now i also understand what it means by "Every successful man has a woman behind supporting him". It's never easy to go through all these difficulties without having someone to support the person.

I've lots of faith in my own abilities and i'm very sure that i'll be able to adapt well and survive well in japan. I'm confident in doing every other things well too. But jus can't get over the emotional feelings.

I WILL GET STRONGER AND BECOME A PILLAR OF SUPPORT FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND THE WORLD!!!!!!!

言っちゃった

月曜言うつもりだったが、疲れたから言ってなかった。
やっと昨日言っちゃった。初めての経験。言っちゃった。緊張していたが言っちゃった。笑顔をもらった。
返事は何でもかまわないから。言いたいことを言った。まだ一緒にいるけどよかった。今からもっといい人になろう。

Slip out



I don't know since when i changed to such a cold-hearted guy
I have to warm this frozen, icy, lonely heart to thaw
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure
I'm going to make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy
I let myself down that i'm more cruel than i thought i would be
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul
I don't give my heart to anyone because i don't want to waste my time
I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole
Sorrow is what i hate but it's grown my sensations
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions
Peace is always by my side but i've never felt it once
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance
Well, i'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And i'm scared to keep on going on my way
Well, i'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And i'll tell myself i'm special till the end
Recalling my torn, broken, aching heart of these long days
And all the memories i wanted to forget for making leaps
Recalling, breaking, aching, crying, making sure to me
And i take all and grin at my future on the way

Two cats

Two cats came to my corridor in the afternoon today and enjoyed a suntan within the nice pots along the corridor along with the nice plants in them. Felt generous and treated them milk too. Was cold milk though so not sure if it's bad for the cats. Hope it's fine. They're young kittens after all, kind of a teenager cat from what i saw from the sizes.