Bite the bullet

I'm going to bite a bullet soon. Crossed my heart three times and said that i would not do it. But i still can't control and stop myself... Oh whatever... like crossing heart is going to work out. I'm taking a risk and heading to a new direction. Failure probably won't affect too much, and the success rate is probably 0.00001%. Either way, i'm biting the bullet and doing it.

What the hell am i saying? It's about something that i'll be doing. If successful, more info will be provided in the future.

Arghhh another pit stop

I've hit another rock for my guitar playing... I'm kinda stuck playing the same few songs for the past few weeks. Other songs that i wanna learn are quite hard. Oh mannnnnn.... This seems like a difficult barrier for me to break alone... How i wish i still have a guitar teacher to force things on me....

1 more month to the end of Japanese lessons at Aoba. Time flies man... Oh well.. Knew it when we had our first lesson anyway. When you're busy, time jus disappear without realising. Worse still if you live everyday hoping for knock off time. Will realise that you're 40 by that time. Continue that you'll reach retirement age before you even realise it. I'm really afraid of that, especially when time flies so fast i fail to care about people important to me much. Gonna treasure everything now. Some things once gone, will never be back. Money whatever can still be earned, but never people important to you... Saying that, my trip to Japan seems like a contradicting thing... I'm still having battles with going Japan once in a while, not exactly about a different culture, but more about the fear of losing time i could have spent with people important to me instead...

Freaking fate

I can feel the direction i'm heading towards now. Everything that i've aimed for has been fulfilled. Currently dun have big targets to work towards. Maybe just to find a girlfriend. But i jus dun wan a foreigner damn it. So many problems with having a foreigner as a girlfriend and wife. Not really worried about relationship kind of problems but more about problems created to my family and friends. Maybe family more. Communication and citizenship and such. But really feeling that everything is heading towards that direction now... And i can't seem to do much about it... Maybe i should learn to solve the problems that are stopping me from accepting a foreigner as a girlfriend instead of trying to change whatever has been set in front for me...

Singaporeans: 12 years of frustration under PAP

From http://www.temasekreview.com/2010/09/13/singaporeans-12-years-of-frustration-under-the-pap/

And lots of Singaporeans are complaining about PAP. I personally dun like it. What's the point of complaining so much about PAP? I dunno if they're really putting in real effort to improve things or to help Singaporeans. But no matter what, PAP is still managed by PEOPLE. People have limited abilities damn it. What's the point of blaming everything on PAP and expect them to solve all the problems. If you dun like it, dun just stay there and whine. Freaking get out and find a solution to the problem!

Try voting PAP out and bloody see what other parties can seriously do. I'd really like to see those whiners volunteering to solve all these problems. And i really what's going to happen if there is just a direct enforcement to kick all foreigners out. Singapore will degrade into some third world country again?

I truly agree with the guy that mentioned the thing below.

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Want some cheese with that Whine?
September 13, 2010 at 2:27 pm
Aaand what? Vote out the PAP and then what? What would change? Nothing. Do you seriously think that simply handing over the reins of power to another party would make a jot of difference? Please!

Look at almost every country in the world, and what ‘regime change’ has brought. Nothing changed. Look at America and all the hype about Obama. What changed? NOTHING. The economic recovery is tottering, the national debt is at a record high, unemployment is soaring and now they want to burn Qurans to commemorate 9/11. Iraq is still a mess and Afghanistan is a lost cause. Change We Need?! Bullshit.

What do you expect to change? Do you really think an RP or WP government would immediately start packing off foreigners back to their home countries? Or that suddenly people will boost up the local population by having more kids? Or that suddenly our government bodies which are filled with PAP yes men at the top will become more accountable? Only fools and kids will believe that. The PAP is not the problem. The problem is Singaporean. We wanted this scenario, and now that we’ve got it, we don’t like it and blame the government and pretend it’s not what we wanted. No one is forcing hawker centres to recruit PRC nationals. No one is forcing the thousands of retail places and restaurants here to recruit Indonesians and Filipinos, but Singaporeans want profit at any cost, even if it means screwing over other Singaporeans. If Singaporeans didn’t sleep with PRC women we wouldn’t even have PRC prostitutes!
No one forces anyone to go to casinos and yet most of the people there are Singaporean. No one is forcing anyone to ask 50k over valuation and yet Singaporeans are asking that much money because they are avaricious. No one forced 67% of people to vote the PAP, but a combination of greed, fear and selfishness is enough to put an X against their name on the voting sheet. No one forced people to torture kids with insane workloads till they have no time to even play, but a Uniquely Singaporean brand of kiasuism makes them do it.

The problems Singapore faces have no government solutions. They are a direct result of the peoples’ own shortsighted views on what success and happiness means. The PAP is happy to encourage that mindset because it keeps them in power but please don’t kid yourself into thinking that they created this mindset. That is a Uniquely Singaporean creation. The PAP is merely a reflection of that mindset.

Another week has gone by...

Without realising it, 9 sep is nearly over. I'm still struggling with the FYP project. Design is nearly done but i still need some time to send it for fabrication. Feeling kind of tired having to think of designs after returning home after whole day of japanese lessons.

It's just a month plus a few weeks before i fly to japan. Kept telling everyone that it's still long before i fly to japan. Can't say that now. It's not long anymore. Can feel the loneliness after going there. OMG... Oh well... Gonna motivate myself well and keep going. Mustn't stop heading forward even if it gets tough. It's really getting tough now.

Anyway i seem to be thinking about the future more and more now. Gonna prepare myself well. Or am i preparing myself too well already...



Been playing the electric guitar for a while now. Slowly realising the way of getting nice sounds out of everything i have. And this is Mary. Just by looking at the guitar this name pops up in my mind. So i call her Mary. Nothing sexy though. Not my girlfriend or wife yet.

Mary

New hard disk!

My sister bought this for me from Comex fair. Gonna return her $92 soon. It's a cute little portable 500GB drive. My current 120GB is fairly insufficient with all the songs and photos and movies I have so gonna get a bigger one. Need more space when i take a lot of photos in Japan too.

It's really a nice design. But read online reviews about lots of problems with the drive. Hopefully mine can last forever.